Showing posts with label film. Show all posts
Showing posts with label film. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 04, 2017

Best Films of 2016

2016 was a great year for films.  Usually I am able to narrow things down to a top 10 or at most a top 15.  This year I have a top 27 because I saw that many genuinely great movies this year.  There's also a movie on this list technically released in 2015 and that's because I didn't see it until early 2016 so it didn't make last years list and I think it deserves a mention.

Movies have become an important aspect of my life - they are a way for me to process feelings, learn and understand more about other people, become educated on topics unfamiliar to my every day lived experience, and they help me manage and recognize difficult emotions.


1.

The Revenant - Director Alejandro González Iñárritu



I found this to be breathtakingly beautiful.  I could almost feel the cold air filling up my lungs.  Brutal and intense, Leonardo DiCaprio does an excellent job here, as is often the case with Mr. DiCaprio.  The story follows frontiersman Hugh Glass is a roughly based on some actual events.  The soundtrack and cinematography are excellent.  It's an intense film and I saw it more than once because I found the experience to be that worthy.  It's a story about grief, anger, tenacity, and the harsh realities of mother nature.  The experience in all can be rather transcendent. 

2.

The Witch - Director Robert Eggers


Visually Compelling and spare in details, the film is set in puritanical New England cica 1630.   It utilizes a sort of nerve wracking tension that builds horrifically throughout the film.  The screen itself is quite dark and the tension never really lets up.  Every once in a while I really enjoy being scared on the level of a sort of abject terror.  Embedded within this terror is interesting exploration of religious fervor and suspicions that exists within a small community.  Family loyalties are also explored and tested.  If you don't like scary movies, you'll hate this, but otherwise I highly recommend it. 


3.

Creative Control - Benjamin Dickinson






It's pretty likely you didn't hear about this one.  Creative Control is hard to describe, but delves into the ability to create our own virtual worlds.  To a certain extent we already live in this world.  My twitter feed is not your twitter feed, my google ad suggestions are not your google ad suggestions.  My facebook feed reflects only to a certain extent the thoughts and status of my friends, but more often reveals my interests in the way of the news, the ads, the content and the suggestions that more closely align with a reflection of myself.  Creative control takes this a step further when it looks at the ability to create a virtual reality peopled with people who live IRL (In real life) but who may appear differently in our virtual world.  I enjoyed that this was black and white with some occasional color for emphasis.  I like movies that explore new ideas.    



4.   Demolition - Jean-Marc Vallée




The main message here is that there is some beauty and maybe even redemption in a total breakdown.  I feel like this film really did not get the credit it deserves.  Gyllenhaal is a great as ever and the movie is smartly done and I thought had a really great message.  Following the death of his wife Gyllenhaal has to figure out what matters and in order to do so he has to kind of destroy everything and start from scratch.  I found it very refreshing, often funny, and touching.



5.  The Invitation -  Karyn Kusama



So I really liked this - it is more of a thriller and I enjoy a well made thriller.  This movie started my crush on my new boyfriend Logan Marshall Green who I think makes a cuter and more cali version of Tom Hardy (who I first noticed last year in Madame Bovary).  The premise is the main character and his girlfriend are invited to dinner party being held by his ex wife and her new partner.  The invitation is accepted but perhaps suspicious though we aren't really sure initially what is going on and maybe Logan Marshall Green is just being paranoid.  That's all I'm going to say so that I don't spoil it.  This was another movie that flew under the radar because it was independent and didn't get wide distribution (thank goodness for living in the Phoenix area that we are large enough to get some of these more obscure titles in the theatres).  Check it out I think you'll dig it if you like an interesting premise and a sort of edge of your seat experience.  (also again, Logan Marshall Green, he's adorable and you'll thank me later for making you aware of his cuteness.) 

6.   The First Monday in May - Andrew Rossi 



You guys this was stunning.  Every year the Metropolitan Museum of Art does the Met Gala and this is both a fundraiser and an exhibition that goes along with it which is themed - the year that this was filmed the theme was "China: Through the Looking Glass".  It is gorgeous feast for the eyes of the exploration of Chines influence on art and fashion through the ages.  I've seen this 3 times now and I actually purchased the movie on my Apple Itunes because it's that good.  I can't say enough good things about this.  This is why fashion should be considered an art form - I really believe for anyone who has ever questioned that premise, this movie should put that to rest.  

7.  A Bigger Splash - Luca Guadagnino



One day I was randomly looking for a french movie I saw a long time ago and perusing netflix to see if I could find it and some old french film popped up and I actually watched it and it was kind of weird but also kind of great.  Then this year I went to this movie and part way through I was like "oh hey wait a minute, I've seen this before" - which was because the old French movie I saw was "La Piscine" (1969) and it is the older version of this movie.  If you don't like meandering foreign films where you aren't quite sure what the point is going to be - then this probably isn't meant for you.  But if you DO dig those sorts of things, this is great.   Basically a character study in what happens when you place 4 people together in on a sun drenched island and sort of watch what kind of chemical reaction you can create out of it.  This also made me absolutely fall in love with the island of Pantelleria.  I'm so keen on visiting either the Italian or Spanish islands which I think have this great sort of volcanic beauty.  The movie is a bit of a meandering journey but I really liked the ride.  

8.  Sing Street - John Carney 



An adorable throw back to the 80s movie that reminds me of everything we loved about 80s romance like Pretty in Pink.  That's really all you need to know.  Trust me you'll love it.  Boy meets girl, boy has big dreams, girl has big dreams, hopeful and cute with heart.  


9.  King Jack - Felix Thompson 



This was quite a great little movie.  A coming of age story about a kid who lives in less than ideal circumstances, who is being bullied, but who himself is probably headed for a stint in juvie if he doesn't make some changes.  A story about what a kids world looks like when money is tight and parental supervision is lacking.  There's a lot of heart here and a lot of honesty.  The lead actor is great and it all seems totally authentic.  Ultimately hopeful, it sort of hit me in the feels and lingered.  



10.  Holy Hell - Will Allen 



This is a very thorough documentary because one of the members of the cult it is about began filming while being a participant in the movement beginning in 1985.  The movement was called Buddhafield.  It was a spiritual movement and it still exists in some form today.  The fascinating thing about this was to try to understand the hold the movement had on its participants which was quite strong.  In the beginning everything seemed like rainbows and unicorns but later, it seemed to take a darker turn.  Its hard to describe, you sort of have to watch it to really get a feel for what is going on here.  My daughter and I have discussed this movie several times and it is genuinely one of the more fascinating documentaries I saw this year.



11.  Keanu - Peter Atencio


This was the funniest movie I saw this year.  These guys were hilarious.  I loved the whole silly premise which was too nice dudes who stumble into pretending to be gangsters just to get their cat Keanu back who happens to have been taken by said a local gang.  It's a ridiculous premise and it worked wonderfully well at making everything that happens in this movie seem totally plausible in the least plausible way which gives you permission to laugh at everything.  



12.  Hell or High Water -  David Mackenzie  



Besides the fact that Chris Pine is a thing of beauty, this movie has a lot to offer.  This is a well paced tale of two men on the wrong side of the law for what appear to perhaps be the right reasons, although we aren't exactly sure.  You find yourself not being certain if we are rooting for the good guys or the bad guys or both.  Jeff Bridges superbly portrays an older sheriff here but all the acting is great all the way around. 


13.  Other People -  Chris Kelly



Molly Shannon does such a great job here as a woman dying of cancer.  The whole premise of this movie - a woman dying of cancer, makes it sound like something you'd rather avoid because who wants to be all depressed about that right?  But I loved how this movie explored what it means to really live and then die the right way, and how we can make sure we are living a life that is honest.  It's a tear jerker for sure, but in a way that stuck with me and made me feel better for having watched it.  There are some great humorous moments in this too that reminded me a lot of the ways in which families are complex things and sometimes the source of our greatest happiness and are greatest pains. 

14.  Miss Stevens - Julia Hart



Miss Stevens is about a group of high school students who go on a weekend trip with their teacher for a drama competition (similar to speech competitions for those familiar).  And even though the movie is sort of about that, what the movie is really about is a teacher who is only a biscuit older than her students and how anyone who spends some significant time around teens realizes we never really grow so old that we don't fundamentally relate to being a teenager still.  And teens aren't really so young that they can't understand what it means to be a grown up.  And there's a lot of fuzzy territory there in between.  This one was quiet and I really enjoyed the fact that I never totally knew where the plot was going and it had layers and layers of meaning and goodness that I just completely absorbed like a dose of the best medicine money could buy.

15.  City of Gold - Laura Gabbert




This is a documentary about a man's love affair with food.  It is beautiful.  And it is a delicious portrayal of everything that is awesome about the Los Angeles melting pot of neighborhoods and the culinary surprises that result.  I should buy this movie so that I can watch it again before I go to Los Angeles next time because it is chock full of wonderful information on where to get all the best LA has to offer.  My kids and I watched this together and fully enjoyed and savored every morsel of this film.  :)

16.  American Honey - Andrea Arnold


These kids who sell magazine subscriptions show up my door time and time again and I have never believed their B.S. and have often called them out on it.  This movie will do nothing to change the way I react to them when they show up - I'm still not going to buy their magazine subscriptions, however, it will make me remember their humanity a little bit more.  I know these kids.  These kids are kids who sit in my counseling office from time to time.  These kids are the forgotten kids.  The kids who dropped out of school because no one cared.  Who slipped through all the cracks all the way down to the very bottom and still no one really notices or cares.  And they will mostly continue to survive because at the end of the day, you almost can't really break these kids, that's how much resilience that have.  Sad but poetic.  I loved so many things about this very raw movie.  I saw the previews for this film with some friends and one of my friends remarked "that looks horribly depressing" but I had been sitting there watching the same preview thinking "man, I really have to see that movie".  It did not disappoint.  It was brilliant.  Cinematic and acting wise this film was one of the very best I saw all year.

17.  Blue Jay -  Alexandre Lehmann


The acting here is so good.  This movie is this quiet little story of two old high school sweethearts who run into each other in the grocery store in their hometown.  They haven't seen each other in years and we aren't really sure what to expect.  The movie unfolds in this slow dance between the two of them and gradually reveals bits of important information that helps explain why they broke up and why the feelings between the two of them appear to be so strong.  I really enjoyed this but it did make me SOB at some points.  So if you really hate crying, skip this.  But I'm glad I didn't skip it because I thought it was absolutely beautiful. 

18.  Moonlight - Barry Jenkins 



This was hands down my favorite movie this year.  It was just so beautiful.  The story is told in three parts like a symphony or a play, the film itself is gorgeous, and the story touches on themes of race, poverty, sexuality, and isolation.  The story is a very unique one and to some extent defies simple description.  The director uses a lot of metaphor and symbolism and it gave the movie a depth that allowed me to see it twice while still wishing to watch it again.  A movie like this proves what potential movies have to give us insight and meaning.  Truly a piece if art. 

19.  The Handmaid - Chan-wook Park 




This movie was just flat out gorgeous.  The story was interesting with tricky plot twists and kept me totally engaged, but even if the story had been awful, the images on the screen and set direction would still have been worth watching.  

20.  Noctural Animals - Tom Ford 



So the last movie Tom Ford directed was "A Single Man" and it was a beautiful and sad experience to watch, but in a good way.  This story and the tone is a little different, but I enjoyed it very much.  A Single Man felt more quiet and contemplative whereas this movie is more in the vein of a thriller.   As always, Tom Ford dazzles with interesting imagery and an eye for incredible detail.  

21.  Arrival - Dennis Villeneuve


Two Amy Adams movies in a row here.  What I loved about this is I don't even particularly like alien type movies and I found this one so unique and great.  The message of this movie above all else was very heartening and uplifting.  Amy Adams does a great job and this movie has a beauty that I really enjoyed as well.  Even if you're normally not much interested in an "alien" film, I recommend you give this a shot.  


22.  The Lobster - Yorgos Lanthimos 


You guys this was weird and good.  I saw it more than once because I really wanted to totally understand all aspects of this and I felt I missed some things the first time.  The premise of this movie is that being single is totally unacceptable.  You MUST have a partner. If not, you probably shouldn't live as a human and should be an animal instead.  The total weirdness of this is just too difficult to explain but it makes some very funny criticism of the culture of dating/marriage and placing such a high premium on being with someone.  It seems to equally criticize those who think being in a relationship is a waste of time or anathema to having a fulfilling and important life.  I guarantee this movie won't bore you.  

23. Jackie - Pablo Larrain




This was such a powerful film.  First of all, Natalie Portman does an amazing portrayal of Jackie Kennedy.  Secondly, the focus on the timing between the assassination of President Kennedy and the funeral and Jackie's hyper focus on the optics of it all is a fascinating way to approach this topic.  This movie helped to contextualize so much about the Kennedy legacy and to really put myself in Jackie's shoes.  I thought it was amazing.  


24.  La La Land - Damien Chazelle 



This was crazy good.  I loved everything about it.  Ryan Gosling continues to be the best boyfriend anyone could ever have.  I loved the chemistry between him and Emma Stone.  The songs from this movie have been stuck in my head every since I saw it.  No one really makes musicals like this anymore and the director figured out a way to do it and pay homage to musicals of old while still keeping it fresh.  That's tricky but it worked out wonderfully well.


25.  Manchester by the Sea - Kenneth Longergan




You guys this is really sad.  But SO good.  Casey Affleck does an amazing job.  It's heartwarming and not totally depressing in every single way - but fair warning, it is FAIRLY depressing.  One of the people I attended this with was pretty much clinically upset afterwards.  Still one of the best movies of the year.

26.  Elle - Paul Verhoeven



This is the same director  did Basic Instinct - and this film has a similar darkness.  This was a completely new take on a sort of old idea - the idea of how sexual assault may impact a powerful woman.  Some aspects of this I never saw coming and I found it fascinating how the director played around with this theme.  I love a good french film.  Isabelle Huppert is a great actress and really makes this film work.

27.  Lion - Garth Davis



This was a gorgeous movie with so much heart.  Based on a true story of a boy in India who became lost and eventually finds his family many years later.  That premise sounded like a thin one to create an entire feature film around but believe me, this is a movie that will engage you from beginning to end.



I know! 27 movies!  That I gave 5 stars each to this year.  It's a crazy amount.  Also that seems like a lot of movies to see!  But I do love movies you guys.  There's almost nothing I would rather do on the weekend than see a movie if I can.  I also lucked out this year with many gifted movie tickets and that made my movie watching a lot more doable.

There are a few movies that I wanted to see in 2016 that I wasn't able to see too so I am hoping to catch up on some of those soon.  20th Century Women doesn't start here for a couple more weeks and I think it looks excellent based on the trailers.  Here's to more great films in 2017.


Friday, January 01, 2016

Films I loved in 2015

I always enjoy rounding up my recommendations for films for the current year.  I keep track of movies as I see them during the year and I jot down a few thoughts and give them a star rating out of 5.  These are all movies that received a 5 star from me.  As usual, these are the best of the films I saw - I am sure there are other great movies out there but I might not have seen them.  In no particular order

1.  Mommy By Xavier Dolan 


This film was about the intensity of the love between a mother and her son.  What I loved was two-fold.  First off I loved the telling of the intensity of this relationship because the son is very challenging and obviously has some mental health challenges that make parenting particularly taxing.  At the same time you have the sense that mom hasn't always known how to be the best mom either.  Though explosive at times, the underlying emotion here is devotion between the two of them.  I also loved how this was shot on a square format.  There were some camera techniques that were very unique and I thought really added to the overall feeling of the movie.  

French w/ subtitles, this one got a 90% rating on rotten tomatoes. 



2.  While We're Young by Noah Baumbauch



If you're over the age of about 39 you know someone who is desperately trying to stay young.  And failing.  Because if you're trying too hard to stay young, I guarantee it's not working. If you know that person (and maybe even if you are that person) this movie is just the thing to both confirm how ridiculous it is to try to stay youthful and relevant, while at the same time perhaps reminding you youth is really mind over matter anyway.  The young all just want to be established and successful and the old just want to be young again.  It's a silly existential dance we do when we try to circumvent the natural progression of life and stay transfixed in time we no longer belong to.  But don't let the seriousness of that description I just penned dissuade you - this is actually really funny.  There are some hilarious comparisons between the newer generation of hipster and the aging gen x adults who grapple to understand why a VCR would be somehow trendier than digital and trying to remember why we gave up vinyl music albums in the first place if they were so dang cool.  This hit home for me too because there is a scene where the desperate to be cool Ben Stiller and Noami Watts decide to try Ayahuasca in hopes the hallucinogen will bring them to some deep and profound point that will erase the angst of aging and renew their youthful outlook while giving them buckets of meaning.  If you know anything about Ayahuasca you know it usually brings buckets of puke along with it's insight.  This hit home for me because I recently had a long conversation with a 40 something who bought a trip to South America specifically to go try Ayahuasca in the hopes of finding her purpose in life.  I really think she's just having a mid life crisis and I wanted to prescribe she go watch this film instead.  I think you'll enjoy this no matter your age and no matter how cool you're trying to be (or not).  

Rotten Tomatoes - 86%


3. Dior and I by Frederic Tcheng 




This film is an absolute dream.  Later, I had to buy this on digital so I can watch it whenever I want.  Seeing the inspiring creative process of Dior's Raf Simons (who sadly, just left Dior a few weeks ago) is nothing short of miraculous. Watching the process of creating the couture gowns and all the hand stitching was just incredible.  The amount of work that goes into a collection and a show is just astounding.  I can't really recommend this enough.  

This one is in french a fair amount of time  but not always - partially english. Rotten Tomatoes 81% 


4.  Kurt Cobain - Montage of Heck by Brett Morgen 


Okay look pretty much everyone who knows me knows that I love Kurt Cobain so maybe I'm a little biased on this movie.  But I think even if you don't like Cobain this is still entertaining, informative, and an enjoyable ride.  The documentary takes an intimate look at Cobain using footage never before seen and augmenting the movie with his artwork in ways that are both provocative and give context and meaning to who Cobain was.  For me it was poignant, profound and heartrending.  

97% on Rotten Tomatoes

[if you want to really go down a Cobain rabbit hole, follow this up with the way more non-mainstream view of the Kurt and Courtney story on Netflix and watch "Soaked in Bleach"]

5.  Diary of a Teenage Girl - by Marielle Heller 


This film, in spite of being a somewhat disturbing subject matter on it's face, really hit a an interesting balance between tackling a difficult topic and keeping it non-exploitative.  To simplify a complex topic the movie is about a coming of age for our teenage protagonist Minnie.  But that coming of age is fraught with the difficulties of a mother who parties too much and pays little to no attention to what is going on with her daughter.  That daughter's first real boyfriend is also her mother's boyfriend.  You sort of want to hate Alexander Skarsgard for taking advantage of a teenage girl and you feel compelled to consider him a predator or a pedophile, but you also realize it's more complicated than that for Minnie.  There are no simple emotions or situations here and the film is set in the midst of San Francisco during the post free love age that pretty much confused everything for everyone.  High moral ground you won't really find here.  But what you will find is a portrayal of everything that is both awesome and horrible about being a teenage girl.  The setting of the 70s was so spot on where some films get it wrong, this is really what the 70s looked like.  

Rotten Tomatoes 94%

6.  Far From the Madding Crowd -  Thomas Vinterberg


Based on Thomas Hardy's original book - the melodrama of some of these old stories is both kind of funny and refreshing.  This movie is as romantic as it gets.  I loved Carry Mulligan and Matthias Schoenaerts chemistry in this movie.  What can I say?  This movie is about star-crossed love at it's best, improbable and perfect.   Enjoy it for what it is.  

Rotten Tomatoes 86%





7. Crimson Peak  - Guillermo Del Toro



Sometimes you just want a good old fashioned gothic style ghost story and this one really worked for me.  Del Toro is a dude with a huge imagination and I thought this film really captured all the elements of a perfect ghost story.  The film is also beautiful and the attention to detail with the sets and costumes is excellent.  

Rotten Tomatoes 69%



By the Sea - Angelina Jolie 


Okay hear me out on this one.  Do not go if you don't like slow movies, movies with very little plot, subtle subtext, or long shots that linger on stylistic elements.  DO see this if you like any of those things, and additionally love little sea villages, gorgeous clothes, beautiful rooms, languid shots, subdued plot, pretty people, and general moodiness.  This is right up my alley, but I'm fully aware I am in the minority about these sorts of things.  There's also some kinda deep stuff about voyeurism and obsession with other people's lives which feels particularly interesting coming from Angelina.  Whatever else can be said about this I think there is no doubt Angelina meant to make a film that felt more like something created in the mid to early 70s.  A beautiful film that gets all the right shots and that is totally accomplished here.  

32% Rotten Tomatoes (see, no one liked it except me)



The Intern - Nancy Myers


First off, Nancy Myers is my feel good guru.  This movie was just sweet as all get-out.  How rare is it that a movie explores a friendship between a man and a woman and it REALLY is just about friendship. Sometimes I like to just sit on the couch and escape from the world with a good Nancy Myers movie and this is one I'll probably buy for that purpose.  There's also, as usual with Nancy, some scrummy interiors to drool over and the main action of the movie is a JCREW-like office in New York that is also visually lovely (and a dream work place environment).

Rotten Tomatoes - 61%



The Second Mother - Anna Muylaert



This is as foreign film that explores the complexities of a classist society.  Set in Brazil, the film is about the relationship between a maid and the household family members she has been employed with for a long time.  Her relationship with the son of the household is more like that of mother and son rather than an employee.  There are other complications with relationships between family members as well including difficulties with her own daughter.  It sounds overly dramatic and there is some drama, but it is also very funny at times, and heartfelt.  I really liked the overall message of the film and I thought it was very well made.  

Portuguese with English subtitles - Rotten Tomatoes LOVED this with 96%




Love & Mercy - Bill Pohlad 



This was super excellent and not just because I think my boyfriend John Cusack did a great job of portraying Brian Wilson.  Probably one of the best biographical movies I've ever seen it really helps give context to all of the weird Beach Boys/Brian Wilson drama we've heard about over the years.  It also shows what a genius Wilson is and really helps him get his own story out there when for many years other people tried to control his story and give their own versions that were inaccurate. It's a sweet love story to boot and will make you fall in love with Beach Boys music all over again.  Both Cusack and Paul Dano do an excellent acting job here. 

Rotten Tomatoes totally loved this with a 90% approval rating


Iris - Albert Maysles


LOVED this.  Iris Apfel is a national treasure.  If you don't know who she is or why she's pretty much the most awesome senior fashionista in existence, run out and rent this right away.  You'll fall in love with her immediately.  I can only HOPE to be 1/10th as cool as this lady is when I'm old.  

Rotten Tomatoes agrees she's super awesome with 98% really you can't get a higher rating than that!


 Animals - Colin Schiffli



This is one probably not that many people saw.  If you're interested in a story about the toll of addiction, this is a really good one.  Realistically providing insight into how addiction both humanizes and dehumanizes a person at the same time.  The movie is both empathetic towards their heroin addiction, and yet ultimately not overly sympathetic.  Which is a difficult and nice balance to strike.  A lot of times movies about addiction sort of feel like they get it wrong, but I felt like this one really got it right.  Beautifully filmed as well.  If you're not into a movie about two drug addicts and their struggle to survive, I understand.  But if its a topic you find remotely interesting and you like good filmmaking, this one is good.  

Rotten Tomatoes -  84% 

Lastly here are honorable mentions - movies I really liked this year but didn't make my cut for top 10-15.  All are movies i enjoyed and you might like as well - some are more mainstream and therefore didn't make my cut to review them because it's likely you already heard PLENTY about them (Inside Out, I'm looking at you)


Inside Out 
Brooklyn
Straight Out of Compton
The Gift
Trainwreck
Me, Earl & The Dying Girl
The Overnight
I'll See You In My Dreams
The Big Short
An Irrational Man

AND as a bonus - I asked all of my girlfriends what movies they enjoyed most this year and I got these which I neglected list myself: 

The Martian
Still Alice
Infinitely Polar Bear 
Home
Bridge of Spies
Big Hero 6


Anything you loved that I didn't mention? Checking out the list above should keep you busy for a while.  









Friday, December 11, 2015

A love note to Harkins Camelview





Will I be able to make you understand why I love this place so much and why I will miss it so much? 



  


 I do not remember the first time I went to this theatre* (*blogger wants to tell me this is spelled wrong, but its Harkins Theatres and I'm sticking to that.)  I just know that since I moved to Phoenix in 1995 I have been in love with this place. I love that it shows all independent and foreign films. I love that it's an older building and the screens are kinda old school, the seats aren't stadium and they aren't fancy, the clientele is a weird mixture of middle aged people and college students, and the experience feels very intimate. The whole place is cozy as hell. Even the bathrooms are likable. The murals are cool and the walls are slightly dingy and nothing about it is really slick or what I've come to experience at the nicer newer theatres and I totally dig that. And those mushroom shade structures out front? It hurts my heart they are going away.





But what I think I probably love the most about this place is that it helped me heal from my divorce. It helped me get to know myself better and to be a happier person. I am being totally honest when I say I don't think I would be doing as well as I am emotionally without this place.



Let me back up for a minute.







When I was in high school I got into this thing where I felt like I needed to be out doing something every Friday night. I mean maybe sometimes that would be hanging out at a friends house, but a lot of times it was going to the movies, going to a football game, going to a dance, or being silly with my friends driving around Rexburg Idaho. I went out on Saturdays sometimes too but it felt like I pretty much ALWAYS went out on Friday.







In college it was similar. When I was in college I had another experience that contributed to why I love Camelview so much - and really movies in general. The summer between my Sophomore and Junior year of college was little rough (an understatement) - for lots of reasons I was pretty depressed. I had recently moved to Provo and while I love Provo that first summer was a little bit of a difficult adjustment. I remember one day I was in my room which was part of the attic of an old house in downtown Provo. It was hot. No air conditioning! I was sweltering and in a very bad mood. I remember there was no one at home to do anything with and I really needed to get out of the house. I remember having this vague idea about the movies and air conditioning. I got dressed up in this summer dress, put on full make-up, did my hair, and then walked to the movie theatre in downtown Provo. The movie was "The Secret of My Success" with Michael J. Fox. I went to that movie alone. I was so much happier afterwards. Not only was it so much cooler getting out of that stifling old attic but it just felt good to go and do something. From then on I used going to the movies by myself from time to time as a way to regroup.


 

There's something so magical about movies for me. That summer in Provo I learned there was a Foreign Cinema on campus in the Kimball Building. I quickly fell in love with Foreign films. Pretty soon I was traveling to Salt Lake with my friend Nan to see movies we couldn't see in Provo. Movies like "Manon of the Spring" and "My Life as A Dog". These are still old favorites. I don't know why exactly I grew to love films of a quirkier and more exotic quality. I loved the pacing of foreign films. I loved that a lot of the time they are just more of a contemplation on life than an action packed sequence of events. They are often more quiet and I need that sometimes. I like the feeling of watching something in a foreign language and then having that language kind of wash over me. I delude myself often into feeling I can speak Portuguese for an hour or two. I enjoy American movies that are independent usually much more than mainstream films for the same reason.


For many years when I was married we went out on Friday nights. Sometimes just to dinner, or maybe to the art gallery, or First Friday, or some event - maybe dinner with friends. I always enjoyed going out on Friday. It felt like a great way to kick off the weekend and my fall back "go-to" activity was a movie and dinner. In retrospect I am not sure if my husband really enjoyed that as much as I did.



To me there was nothing better than driving around in the convertible with the top down on a warm Arizona evening, smelling all the goodness of the desert, anticipating a perfectly cooked steak and a movie. When my marriage ended my husband and I had 50/50 custody and we split the time the children were at his home and mine. I had them slightly more often than he did and one of the things we agreed on was that they would go to his house on Friday nights and stay until sometime on Saturday. I was okay with that and at first I would try to fill my Friday night schedule with meeting friends for dinner or something similar. But often I felt like I was just trying to fill up the time so I didn't have to think too much about being alone. It is weird when you have a bunch of friends who are in couples and suddenly it really doesn't work to hang out with any of them anymore. I totally understand why that happens, but it doesn't make it suck any less. Eventually I started to plan ahead that I would always go to a movie by myself if I didn't have anything else to do. And often (usually) I preferred that to anything else. It was the perfect way to spend my Friday.


 


I would drive, up Lincoln Drive to Scottsdale Road with the windows rolled down, smelling the desert and glad I had somewhere to go and something to look forward to. When you're overcoming something difficult spending time alone can be very soothing.  There's no one to answer to and if you want to feel sad or cry - you can go right ahead.  I healed one Friday night at a time. Camelview was a huge part of that and for that reason I will always love it. In the movies, in the dark, you have epiphanies about things. You learn a lot of important things about yourself. You see things you never saw before. You hear things in a new way. You become a student of human nature and it teaches you. You cry. You laugh. When you leave - whatever was wrong when you came is all better.





I know losing one movie theatre isn't going to totally ruin my little ritual. There are other theatres. And there will always be great movies. And the new movie theatre that is replacing Camelview will be awesome with it's stadium seats and dining options and blah blah blah. Very slick and beautiful and I'm sure lovely in it's own way. But it definitely will not be the same. I hate that we throw things away because they are old. I hate that people always want newer things and shinier things. They are hardly ever better. People usually figure that out when it's way to late. My last movie there was last weekend watching Amelie. Which is one of my favorite movies and I saw it there when it first came out. It was a fitting note to end things on. Anyway. This is my love note to Harkins Camelview. Thank you.





















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